Sleeping Time

Sleeping Time NO GO Pills

These really makes me very sleepy and dopey.

I am just going to pop some one these and take a nap


I comes in a blister packet of 14.


12.5mg??????why the.5???
NOTE: THIS IS ONE OF THE NON BENZODIAZEPINE HYPNOTIC

COVENANT VISION Church


I spent last night in church attending Alfa course.My dear wife got me to this church to learn more about Christianity.I love her for this.

This is me with Jesudas


And Brother Eric

Jesus Is The Way The Truth And The Life

My Geylang Buddys.

My Geylang buddy

This is my friend Ratan from Bangladelsh.He is really a nice Bro to be with.This shows I HAVE no social discrimination between people...Thats it. Flat and simple.Just Me.......

JRT

OUT FROM "PRISON"

I came out from IMH today. Why I sniff glue is because I think I offended some VIP(very important people)I still can remember glue exploding ,gas leaking from a lighter from a small hole when I was doing my pool .I can see a green object with transmitters and Neurons opening and closing. When It closes I get no high and most of the time it is close. It makes me angry. Very confusing. NO feeling?????

TO MY WIFE

DEAR KIM or Dear Dear I am sorry I took some money from your wallet.I went to pay some money to my friends and have some drinks. Ethanol.

RUBY MY GRT

ME AND MY PET DOG RUBY

This is my Jack Russell Terrier it is a she and I am her owner is a small terrier that has its origins in hunting.

Pain

POEMS

my thoughts are racing
too fast for me to know
what it is I'm feeling
I wish they would flow
one minute I'm happy
smiling ear to ear
and then I get angry
and people start to fear

because after anger is violence
someone always gets the brunt
and then comes the remorse
but by then I've been shunned.
why can't I control it,
the path it always takes?
If I know it's gonna happen
can't I stop for their sakes?

the answer is no I can't
i have tried to stop before
i try to think about it
but my impulse control is poor.
Most days I'm too clingy
I hate when people leave
they think that I am bipolar
but no, I have BPD.

Borderline Personality Disorder
that's what they say is wrong
Stemming from childhood abuse
but c'mon, it's been so long!!!
Shouldn't I be better,
learned to deal with it by now?
I don't want to be like this
someone show me how.

How do I stop being angry
at people who did nothing wrong?
All these intense emotions,
I wish that they were gone.
I want to be normal
forget what's been done
to get rid of these feelings
and stop wanting to run...

I'm a mother now damnit
but how can I raise my kids?
I'm afraid of the world
and everything I did...
is how i am today
going to affect who they are?
will my mental issues
leave emotional scars?

will they hate me when they get older
for crying with no reason?
or will they love me just for trying,
and understand, inside I'm bleeding?
All these questions harass me
because all I really want
is to be a good mother
a parental confidant.

I want them to trust me
feel that I am always there
I want them to know
there isn't a secret they can't share.
But how can my kids trust me,
if I can't trust myself?
I feel like I'm torturing them
because of my mental health.

are there any suggestions
on how I can improve
the anger that is always there,
my constant bad moods?
How can I be a better mom,
a better person all around?
is it even possible to get better
written date:2001
P/s AM I Better NOW????

D Day

Standing in the rain alone no body knows the pain I know. In times of rain and in times of pain nobody seems to care a strain.

People

Today these guys drop by .They are very kind guys. To the back is Anuja and the guy is called Andy welcome to Singapore

Sad

Emptiness That's the Killer and I am just Masking it.

A picture of me edited by my friend..

This picture is done my by friend who drop by my house.She says I look like a bunny.

I was arrested by the police for glue sniffing again all in all I could not see a woman who I think She is from the SICS click on the sics world but saw a bake image of her. I got the instinct that if I sniff Glue I get a better prospective of them.I then sniff it in a plastic bag.She then threw a metal line and ask me to walk straight.I played a fool of that.(DO not want to explain).I put the plastic bag in my pocket as there was no bin in the area.I walk away and a police car came out of the blue!!!!!They stop me and ask me to take the bag out.!I have no intention of getting high.

Married.

I am Married it that a blessing??

Me and myself

Me me and just me.
Me and myself. Call it selfish if you want. May hill stones and snowballs flying over my face and I will blame others. This is just part of me. Can't get rid of my rotting behaviour because I can't afford to lose my wife.

The matrix

The matrix Philosophy

China Town

China Town Trip with my wife.

I was with my wife yesterday in china town and there were lots of people.She was a bit excited to buy the deco for our new home.That's it???

This is my Wife taken with a simple cell phone camera

And me of course.......

My wife loves me.

The following letter is encrypted by my wife. I am very fortunate to have such a caring wife. By the way, we got married today. 8 Feb 2010.
Dear Dr Alex Su,
Daniel and I got registered in ROM today, 8/2/2010. We are now husband and wife. My name is Kim and I have met you before. I work as a property lawyer and cannot come to see you with Daniel. I have tried to read as much as possible about borderline personality disorder in the computer.
Daniel has been charged in court for 4 counts of glue-sniffing and 2 counts of assault, one against a taxi driver and one against the police for vulgar language. I am studying his case and may ask him to plea unfit to plea so that he goes to the forensic ward in IMH instead of the psychiatric ward in prison. He faces a potential term of imprisonment of 3 weeks to 1 and a half years. He cried very badly when I told him on the MRT all the way back home.
Daniel is a good, kind and pleasant person but he was sexually abused when he was young and as a result he is bpd, Dr Su, it is not his fault for his substance abuse, and getting into fits of anger because he is bpd. Please please help him.
I need to know the list of rehabilitation centre I can tell the court to put him in? Do you have a list of rehabilitation centre for drug abuse? Please provide us with a list. What are the avenues that he can seek help for glue sniffing.
My law firm is acting for Daniel for free because I am a legal associate in the firm. Robert Wang & Woo LLC, my firm has written in to IMH for a psychiatric report. Please tell them he is unfit plea. He is aggressive and impulsive at times becos he has a mental illness. Please help us.
He says that an experiment was done on him by an organisation called Singapore Institute of Clinical Science to test the receptors for glue sniffing in his brains and he sees translucent objects and hears voices and YOU are also involved in this test. If so, please help him out of his term of imprisonment. He doesn't deserve to go to jail because his medication is not correct because he doens't make it to see you regularly.
He MUST BE on 4 tablets of epilin chrono per day. He can't have time to take 2 tablets twice a day and the best is for you to prescribe him 4 tablets a day. Eplicon chrono is for epilepsy and it helps hm for his fits at night and stablising him.
Secondly, he needs 4 tablets of Sulpride because his seeing visions and hearing voices schizophrenia is very bad. He seems better when he takes 4 or more tablets a day, Please increase his dose.
Thirdly, other doctors have prescribe him Risperdale. Please give him the correct dose.
Fourthly, BPD has depression sometimes, please give him 1 tablet of Effexor every night. He seems better with it.
He needs Xanax to calm down sometimes when he is hyper. Please prescribe him 1 tablet 3 times a day and I will ensure that he takes it only when he is over-active and needs to relax.
He wants valium to sleep he needs that and when he is in IMH or prison, please prescribe it to him.
Please help us, Dr Su. I can be contacted at 8108 5482. I need to talk to you very badly. Please call me. My name is Kim. He feels very sad and hurt because when he talks on the phone you bang down the phone on him. Please help him, Dr Su. Kim Cheong.

This is my letter to my new husband, Daniel Lim on my marriage date today. 8 Feb 2010.
Dear Daniel, today we exchanged vows at the ROM and I want to say that I will forever remember the words that was celebrated today, that is I will forever love you and be faithful to you. I will love and care for you in sickness and in health and I will treasure you and your love for me no matter what we go through, whether we are rich or poor. my wish for you is for me to treat you with respect and never to hit you again. Never be unfair to you and to love you with tender loving care always till death do us apart. I will try to cure your bpd so that you are a normal person.

You must have the dream to be your own boss one day, next year, to run a internet cafe and to open a chain of internet cafe because you are a very intelligent guy. After you go to prison, you MUST stop glue-sniffing, otherwise I will throw away our marriage dog, Ruby the Jack Russel. You must stop codeine after prison or IMH otherwise forever you waste the precious money we earn and from your dad. All substance abuse, dhamotil, valium MUST BE STOPPED, You must become a normal person like every one else and hold a job like every one else. I promise I will help you along the way and you will be rich.

Look forward to a life, driving a sports car, holidays in America, Canada and Europe every year, eating at restaurants having a maid in a condo and a house in Geylang. You can make it with my help. I never ever fail in what I want. You must want all these things badly. And most of all treat your wonderful parents well and with respect. Treat me well. You have treated me very well and that is why I married you even though we have no money. I marry you for love not money. But I see the potential in you to be rich. And I am seldom wrong. Have HOPE in your life to be successful and YOU WILL be successful like me. I have married you and to be your wife, I will always love and respect you, my one and only love, forever. LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER, KIM

WEB CAM

WEBCAM Madsee Brand


This web cam is made in china it is a no frills kind of web camera it is very good in the sense as it has a 10cm micro shot.Anyway I maybe going to prison.I cannot accepted it

The micro mode...

Profile wipe out

Profile Wipe OUT!!!!!
I realise that his profile was wipe out after I email him about the "experiment" he did to me.I believe that his students did this to me, without his knowledge.I am so sad I wanted to kill my life and end it all I am looking uglier day by day because of the stress from the court.I afraid I might go to prison . Click here .There are other ones that are wipe out too to cover their evidence

Glue?

Charge in court
I was staying with Kim and she spent the whole night and Day in the room. I was really bored. I wanted to go home but she don't allow me to. I was frustrated I went down to buy a stick of glue to inhale. I felt a high. This was the first time I took glue in this context. When the 2Nd time I
Sniffed glue . It was the same scenario. The only thing I heard voices and I felt no high. There was voices asking me how I feel every time I sniff glue. The next time I sniff glue, I heared voices saw translucent objects asking me the feeling of glue in different stages.Sometimes I feel high but mostly not and I felt stressed up over this. After a few days later, I went to the toilet I saw gas bursting out of a very small hole in the lighter. Immediately I heard a voice asking me to cooperate with them indirectly in the glue "experiment". All in all I feel no high when I was arrested. There was only a high in two occasions when I was caught. To be con`t........God help me......SCIS ??????? I find it extraordinary that an angel coming to help me. So I am happy now. click HERE Now I see he is a coward to me. Bet he never go through NS at all. Oath can be broken at times. When in times of emergency. I am not allowed to say much as it is confidential. hee hee

VALUE Hotel

I am now in Value Hotel Singapore .I think it is a 3 star hotel charging SGD79 Dollars .From my experiences We got rip off.All in all It is not the best budget.Anyway I have thoughts of jumping of the building near by to end it all.I am very ugly now due to stress and I can`t concentrate on anything now.I just want to say sorry to the police,CNB for taking up so much of their time on an idiot like me.

MATRIX ?

Hotel

VALUE HOTEL SINGAPORE
I am now in Value Hotel. At 1.11am in the real world. My fiance or wife to be paid for me and landed me big amount of cash to enjoy myself. She has nice charisma and treats me very nice. I will not want even want to look or think about other girls as she is the best girlfriend I ever have. I may not be able to blog for some time for some things that I cannot disclose.

All in all, I have to face court, that's it. I hope that I will be able to sleep tonight and whoever that read this blog may God bless them.

Stress up

I have been trap lately by the people I love.Sad Even my WEB SITE IS BEING HACK. YOU CAN CLICK HERE TO SEE THE HACK VERSION OF THE PARKING PAGE I MEAN

Shopping

China BlackBerry

China BlackBerry

I just got my blackberry for around SGD$190 made in china.Loser ya...it says made in China ...Even my NSD is made in china???WTF

NSD

MY Acquittance I met on the net cafe from Malaysia

Time is a factor when I am free I will play with my NINTENO DS.The Nintendo DS (ニンテンドーDS?, sometimes abbreviated to DS or NDS) is a dual-screen handheld game console developed and manufactured by Nintendo. It was released in 2004 in Canada, the United States, and Japan. The console features a clamshell design, similar to the Game Boy Advance SP, with two LCD screens inside—with the bottom one being a
touchscreen. The Nintendo DS also features a built-in microphone and supports wireless IEEE 802.11 (Wi-Fi) standards,[5] allowing players to interact with each other within short range (10–30 m, depending on conditions) or online with the Nintendo Wi-Fi Connection service, which launched later in the console's lifespan. This was the first Nintendo console to be released in North America before Japan.
The system's code name was Nitro,[6] and this can be seen in the model number that appear on the unit (NTR-001).[7] The console's name officially refers to "Developers' System", in reference to developers of new game designs the system was meant to inspire, and "Dual Screen", the system's most obvious and distinct feature.[8]
On March 2, 2006, Nintendo released the Nintendo DS Lite, a redesign of the Nintendo DS, in Japan. It was later released in North America, Europe, and Australia in June 2006. The DS Lite is a slimmer and lighter version of the Nintendo DS and has brighter screens. Nintendo of America refers to the older model as the "original style" Nintendo DS.[7] It is often affectionately referred to by fans as the "DS Phat."[9] On October 2, 2008, Nintendo announced the Nintendo DSi, another redesign of the Nintendo DS, at the Nintendo Fall Media Summit.[10] It was released in Japan on November 1, 2008. It was later released in North America, Europe and Australia in April 2009. The DSi's codename has been changed to "TWL" due to it being a substantial hardware upgrade including a faster CPU and more RAM, and requiring new development kits. Satoru Iwata recently announced in an interview with Japanese newspaper, Asahi Shimbun that the next Nintendo DS iteration will have a high resolution display and motion sensors, defeating rumours that Nintendo were developing a brand new system that succeeded the Nintendo DS. It's also possible, however, that this is the Nintendo handheld console that nVidia were making graphics chips for, as a few nVidia employees had said they were contracted by Nintendo to develop new graphics processors for an undisclosed Nintendo handheld. [11]The lower display of the Nintendo DS is overlaid with a touchscreen, designed to accept input from the included stylus, the user's fingers, or a curved plastic tab attached to the optional wrist strap. The touchscreen allows users to interact with in-game elements more directly than by pressing buttons; for example, in the included chatting software, PictoChat, the stylus is used to write messages or draw.
Traditional controls are located on either side of the touchscreen. To the left is a D-pad, with a narrow Power button above it, and to the right are the A, B, X, and Y buttons, with narrow Select and Start buttons above them. Shoulder buttons L and R are located on the upper corners of the lower half of the system. The overall button layout is similar to the controller of the Super Nintendo Entertainment System (Super Famicom in Japan). When playing a GBA game on the DS, buttons X and Y are never used (because the GBA itself only had buttons A and B).
The Nintendo DS features stereo speakers providing virtual surround sound (depending on the software) located on either side of the upper display screen. This is a first for a Nintendo handheld, as the Game Boy line of systems has only supported stereo sound through the use of headphones or external speakers.
A built-in microphone is located below the left side of the bottom screen. It has been used for a variety of purposes, including speech recognition (Nintendogs, Brain Age: Train Your Brain in Minutes a Day!), chatting online between and during gameplay sessions (Pokémon Pearl, Diamond, and Platinum), and minigames that require the player to blow or shout into the microphone (including WarioWare: Touched!, for example).Copy right

from wikipeda

street photo

Street photography

This photo was taken by me in the past. I enjoy the art of snapping photos when people are not aware of.It is just a past time.

Clonezepam

Clonezepam

I saw the doctor today due to a fever and I said I have difficulty in breathing so i told the doctor that I have an injury on my neck and the doctor gave me some muscle relaxing medicine. By the way this is a benzodiazepin and I was smiling out of the doctor's room.

Post

My Death picture I hope (Crazy ya )

May this smile stay in me aways but it will soon be gone.

Me

AVG??????? I am Do IT in this few days but hackers keep attacking me. Bad luck

Friends

This is a photo of my friend we are now in a cafe chilling out!

Lost phone

I am stammering CUZ I am having very low dose of benzodiazepines in my body system.

ME

I am feeling very up tight and moody now.Don`t feel like typing now.

Benzodiazepin withdrawal

ME

Nokia 1680 review

Nokia 1680 Review.



I am using the nokia 1680 classic for a year now and I feel that it is better with the software improvements.I think it would last me a few more years .The Numeric pads are soft and comfortable.I will recommend it to a middle class user.

Where I am Now

These are to keep me awake

I am now staying in A hotel near my house to do some cleaning up work.

Kims Writing

This forum is written by Kim

I found that Daniel was sniffing glue again today. Was very sad and disappointed. Wanted to kick him out of the house we bought. Anyway, if ONE MORE TIME I FIND YOU SNIFFING GLUE, the relationship with me is OVER!!! And I mean it this time. I can't have my future husband sniffing glue like a kid. I am a practising lawyer and have to embarrass myself telling my colleagues about my friend who sniffs glue. It would be worst after Feb 8 when we are officially married. I will CALL IT OFF IF YOU STILL SNIFF GLUE JUST ONE MORE TIME!!!

bad enough he took $30 from me in Tan Tock SEng hospital yesterday, then $20 to go to hdb hub to play and then another $20 to play again at HDB hub. Better stop taking money from me to play. I am already paying $3,500 for a very good lawyer at Criminal law by paying $500 per month for your defence for glue sniffing. What the hell. BEHAVE YOURSELF!!!

?Welcome to my world. I am the first generation to know about this. I swear I will not tell the secret out or the gadgets they use. But all I know is like the show "2010". just a wee bit like 2010. I can't explain it more because it is strictly confidential... till the time more people will know about this.

Looking Uglier and in bad shape.Cravings is all I have Real time 352 hours

I am Ugly

I have been doing alot of chatting in Camfrog and people says I look good. But when I am stress up I will look Dam UGLY

OCD

OCD is that what I am having now. Yap I am having Anxiety.Even my cell phone battery bar goes from half battery to one .
BTY this cell phone was given to me by my wife. hee heee

Me and MY GirlFriend

I am now at the same net cafe Psycho with my future Wife.The place is so Dam noisy with Kids playings RRPG Games.Till I told them to lower the volume. It is a nice place but sad to say I did not bring my Digital Camera for a review.

Netcafe

When you have nothing to write.

I am Happier

I am happier now as I am in Geylang net cafe surfing the net.I am depleted of sleep as you can see from my eye bags OoO. I had not been really sleeping well but I am still happy.The reason? My wife to be iron my cloths and do all the house work. Yeepee!!!!

Die

I have decided to slash my neck instate of my wrist because I had many attempts of wrist slashing and am still alive.I would have piss the doctor off .Tired......just very tired now don`t want to go to a lock up again.

My only electronic left

I am left with two hand phones with me after I lost a big amount of things. I took my phone back from my wife to be and I hope she will not be angry with me.I top it up with 60 Worth of cash and now 9 dollars !!