Photos Taken 1 and 1/2 Days before D day

I am a router and Cam Freak!!!!????

I am a Freak??? Messy yea........ with a preety expensive harddisk rec

This is a photo I took while in a hurry to catch a cab home.(Raining OK Daddy)

This is a blister pack of Generic XANAX!! All I can comment is that it has lots of fillers added to the 0.25mg of aprazolam for abuse prevention .(The pills are pretty big!).

A Gift from my wife

This is a gift from my wife. I really love her,as she is kind having a heart of gold and smart.I will take care of it and bring it to my "place of punishment "Hugs your Husband .

Benzodiazepines

BenzodiazepineS.
are used for short treatment for insomnia (trouble sleeping)and anxiety, control of symptoms of acute alcohol withdrawal and other conditions.
Examples of benzodiazepines include lorazepam diazepam,alprazolam,clonazepam nimetazepam.(Pls NOTE: Nimetazepam is a controlled drug under the misuse of drug act)
Precautions on Benzodiazepine use

• Benzodiazepine may make you drowsy or less alert. Do not drive or opreate machinery if affected.Avoid alcohol as it worsens the drowsiness
• These medications can be habit-forming(causing mental or physical dependence), especially with excessive and prolong use
• To prevent severe withdrawal symptoms , consult your doctor or specialist on a discontinuation plan

Zonk Out

Zonk Out

I am really into street photography this time.

Smilling But Sad inside

Smiling but sad

I am so scattered Due to the problems I am facing anyway this how I look when I mask myself.Dear please don`t leave me.I will make effort to Change my behavior.I do not sleep because my time is short.I am making up lost time.Sounds crazy yea but I have to keep myself busy so as not to ruminate about my court case.Don`t worry I will change my sleep patters when I come out from Prison.Sorry Kim forgive me.Love and Hugs Daniel.

Prison

Prison is the best place.(this was coated by some one)
I may not be able to last through today it is whether I Die or go crazy. But I have the confidence of wining the "fight"

Suicidal

Suicidal Thoughts.
I am having constant thoughts to kill myself and end it all.But I will fight the feeling.It is the battle of the wits.

Meeting my parents.

Meeting My Parents

We went to bugis junction to meet up with my parents for lunch in swensen. My loving wife was so upset with me for someting I can`t disclose for abuse prevention.To round out things she had a good time.AS for me I feel extremely empty but I mask it up as not to affect the "love" ones around me.(I promise I will be a change person expressly for my wife after my safra "chalet" stay in changi.)
Stress level. 10/10

Me

Dear Kim I am Sorry I gave you trouble but please don`t leave me because I will not be able to find a wife as kind and fun loving as you.

The streets

Which Will you chose ?

Which will you chose the new PSP or the Brick Game that made a hit in the 90s?

To my love ones

Dear love ones. I can't take the fact that I will go Prison .I feel unjustified that my lawyer asks me to Plead guilty. Please don't get it wrong that I disagree with him. He is a very nice Person and a good lawyer... It is just that I feel unjustified that I am going in for glue .I felt No HIGH. In the beginning. I feel that it is strange when I had no high in the beginning as because I took glue about one to two years ago and know the effects of the drug . I than took about 20 tubes of contact glue to sniff. Strange things happen Example .the plastic bag of glue exploded, and the incidence when a lighter beside me exploding through a very tiny hole.(the lighter was not touch and it was beside me only.)The weird thing was when I heard voices asking me to corporate with them. I sniff about 20 pulse tube in one day and I was not intoxicated at all. I just feel that I was in another world only placebo .I had a Taxi accident was then caught by a plane clouts police officer and was detain till the resource .police officers came after I came out of the hospital. In the later part, I was addicted to Glue. Eg; cold sweat. And confusion. . I was having a fiction left leg at that time. By that time I felt the High. Maybe sniffing 20 tube of contact cement of glue had added to it.
Personal Note:I have already stop the glue rubbish.

My Hair Cut

I have been wanting to have a hair cut two weeks ago and I decided to do it the day before.(sorry for the late post).Any way The guy is a very professional hair stylists.

This is me with my hair stylist from Malaysia!

My PSP

The Need For Speed.........

Kim bought for me a play station that cost SGD $280 it can surf the net too..

My Old Writings.

My Old Writings.

Erimin Nimetazepam is a benzodiazepine originated from Japan it is said to be invented after the chemical nitrazepam was invented in the western countries . It has a faster onset and a shorter half-life compared to Nitrazepam making it a drug of abuse.Nimetazepam distributed more rapidly in the brain than its desmethyl derivative (nitrazepam)[faster onset]. The brain concentration of the active metabolites of the former was about twice that of Nitrazepam at 1hour after oral administration. 2. At least four kinds of reactions were involved in the biotransformation of nimetazepam and its desmethyl derivative (nitrazepam) (demethylation at N-1,hydroxylation at C-3, reduction of the nitro group at C-7 to the amino group and (iv) subsequent acetylation of the amino group. 3. The 1-N-demethylation of nimetazepam was slow compared with the other three reactions. 4. Nimetazepam was rapidly hydroxylated at C-3, while the 3-hydroxylation of its desmethyl derivative (nitrazepam) was very slow. 5. The reduction of the nitro group at C-7 and subsequent acetylation were important routes for the excretion of these drugs. To Simply things Erimin 5 (nimetazepam) Is a recreational chemical. IT FIRST appeared on the local drug scene three years ago when more than 90,000 pills were seized. Now, the tranquilliser Erimin-5, or nimetazepam, has become the drug of choice among abusers. Many of the 793 drug abusers arrested last year were on Erimin-5, according to the CNB’s annual drugs report Erimin-5 had displaced the previous year's favoured drug, ketamine. Testing for Erimin-5 was began in January 2004. There are people who still think Erimin-5 is not detectable. The truth is Nimetazepam is classified under the Benzodiazepine family and when an accuse is tested positive from the Instant urine test for benzodiazepines , the urine sample will be taken to the Health Science Authority for the analysis for the chemical . In the streets an Erimin-5 tablet costs between S$6 (RM13.80) and S$8 (RM18.40), while 1g of ketamine costs between S$40 (RM92) and S$50 (RM115). Unlike so-called “party drugs” like Ecstasy and ketamine, Erimin-5 is a depressant and seen as a “soft” drug. It can also be obtained easily compaired to other drugs In Singapore Erimin is Scheduled under the Misuse of drug act ( Chapter 185 )It is scheduled under class A which carries a Mandory Jaill therm. A trafficker can face up to a maximum of 10 years in prison and 5 Strokes of the cane. As for illegal possession or consumption of Nimetazepam a person can face up to 10 years of imprisonment or S$20,000 fine or both. Written by:Daniel Lim

Hack version.

To My Dad

To My Loving Dad.

I am sorry for what I have done Dad please forgive me.Mistakes had been done and I can`t undo it,I love you not for your Money . But I love you as a Father and a care giver. Love Daniel Lim .

Mixture

Street photography

This picture was taken with a 3x zoom lens. Believe it or not

The Fuzzy Bear. And Fuck the Delay............

This is street photography Click on street photography to know more.

This is a lists of photos I took with Point and Shoot Camera.With an SLR..?????
Old Memories

I am Condemn of my picture in the web.Search Dhasedyl and I am On the list. Even my silly picture of me (this) is in the photo Tab under under Google.My old web site and domain had been demolish.It should be a site on controlled benzodiazepine abuse.Click here to view my torn down pictures and some writtings.

Building is a task

I tried to fix this table but I was too stupid to do that.

The Meet Up

The Meet UP

I went out with my mum and met my wife today.

Anyway I am too tired to Blog and am going to have some rest.

Vampire ??????

My Dear wife

I will Love you forever. Don't`t leave me as you are the Gift to my life, and I sorry I can`t meet you for lunch today.You are a diamond in my live.And no other Girls can take your place. P/s Click here for a bigger image . Hugs and Love Daniel

Boat ride

The Bus Ride

pcshow

PC SHOW 2010


Went to the pc show and got what I wanted

My New Camera

I Lost My Camera SO This Is MY New One

Fujifilm FinePix AV100 Digital Camera

The combination of high resolution optical sensor for high quality Fujinon with high sensitivity settings up to ISO3200, the Fujifilm FinePix AV100 will provide crisp, clear images under all conditions, perfect for the expansion to the screen or on paper without compromising image quality. The AV100 Fujifilm digital camera is available in a choice of black or silver.

Fujifilm America announces the launch of feature-rich and AV100 FinePix compact digital camera. Not only is this ideal entry to the consumer on a budget, but the AV100 Fujifilm also offers ease of use and allows users to take beautiful pictures with minimal effort. Features such as HD Movie Capture, automatic scene recognition, face detection and high ISO sensitivity of the backdrop for the AV100 Fujifilm FinePix capture memorable moments in stunning either still images or video. The FinePix AV100 uses a 12-megapixel sensor and a CCD 2.7 “LCD high resolution. AV100 The FinePix hosts a Fujinon 3x optical zoom lens for greater range and flexibility.

“We wanted to use our” A-Series “promise camera line and provide consumers with options camera affordable with robust feature sets,” said David Troy, marketing manager, Consumer Digital Cameras, Electronic Imaging Division, Fujifilm Corporation North America. “This year we are pleased to offer HD Movie Capture for consumers looking to buy an easy, affordable way to use the camera and they will get with the new Fujifilm FinePix AV100.

The Fujifilm FinePix AV100 also capture High Definition (HD) 720p video with sound and still shots in 16:9, which can be read on any HD ready TV (or PC at home). There’s also Fujifilm’s optional HD Player Kit, which includes an HD card reader that connects to the HDTV for the transfer of true digital HD quality and a wireless remote for video playback in the comfort of your couch. [via letsgodigital]

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My New Cell Phone

My New Cell Phone Nokia 1200

This is a cell phone I brought because it is cheap. I lost most my cell phone during the last 5 moths

It is a very reliable and do not Freeze so I do not need to reboot.It comes with a led light which makes things easier when I have to hook up my computer workhorse(for Music) The cables are abit tricky when the environment goes dark.There is where the Nokia 1200 comes into place.

Olanzapine

Olanzapine is such a good pill CZ It clams me down.And take the pain I am having emotionally

This is a micro shot of the pill from my Vimicro webcam.

Cell Phone

I am having some cell phone problems these few days. It keeps on hanging and freezes. I had to open the casing and remove the battery and then firing it up again. Hard Reboot ™.

nothing to blog

I have not been blogging for a some time.Because I have nothing to blog.err..... Yup all I can say is I am very fortunate to have such a loving and forgiving wife.All I can do for her is to be a better person. O yea I still owe her SGD$230.Will pay you back ASAP.BTY I kind of miss my Dad remembering the times you brought me to VIVO CITY.Love you Dad.**I ♥ U
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Sleeping Time

Sleeping Time NO GO Pills

These really makes me very sleepy and dopey.

I am just going to pop some one these and take a nap


I comes in a blister packet of 14.


12.5mg??????why the.5???
NOTE: THIS IS ONE OF THE NON BENZODIAZEPINE HYPNOTIC

COVENANT VISION Church


I spent last night in church attending Alfa course.My dear wife got me to this church to learn more about Christianity.I love her for this.

This is me with Jesudas


And Brother Eric

Jesus Is The Way The Truth And The Life

My Geylang Buddys.

My Geylang buddy

This is my friend Ratan from Bangladelsh.He is really a nice Bro to be with.This shows I HAVE no social discrimination between people...Thats it. Flat and simple.Just Me.......

JRT

OUT FROM "PRISON"

I came out from IMH today. Why I sniff glue is because I think I offended some VIP(very important people)I still can remember glue exploding ,gas leaking from a lighter from a small hole when I was doing my pool .I can see a green object with transmitters and Neurons opening and closing. When It closes I get no high and most of the time it is close. It makes me angry. Very confusing. NO feeling?????

TO MY WIFE

DEAR KIM or Dear Dear I am sorry I took some money from your wallet.I went to pay some money to my friends and have some drinks. Ethanol.

RUBY MY GRT

ME AND MY PET DOG RUBY

This is my Jack Russell Terrier it is a she and I am her owner is a small terrier that has its origins in hunting.

Pain

POEMS

my thoughts are racing
too fast for me to know
what it is I'm feeling
I wish they would flow
one minute I'm happy
smiling ear to ear
and then I get angry
and people start to fear

because after anger is violence
someone always gets the brunt
and then comes the remorse
but by then I've been shunned.
why can't I control it,
the path it always takes?
If I know it's gonna happen
can't I stop for their sakes?

the answer is no I can't
i have tried to stop before
i try to think about it
but my impulse control is poor.
Most days I'm too clingy
I hate when people leave
they think that I am bipolar
but no, I have BPD.

Borderline Personality Disorder
that's what they say is wrong
Stemming from childhood abuse
but c'mon, it's been so long!!!
Shouldn't I be better,
learned to deal with it by now?
I don't want to be like this
someone show me how.

How do I stop being angry
at people who did nothing wrong?
All these intense emotions,
I wish that they were gone.
I want to be normal
forget what's been done
to get rid of these feelings
and stop wanting to run...

I'm a mother now damnit
but how can I raise my kids?
I'm afraid of the world
and everything I did...
is how i am today
going to affect who they are?
will my mental issues
leave emotional scars?

will they hate me when they get older
for crying with no reason?
or will they love me just for trying,
and understand, inside I'm bleeding?
All these questions harass me
because all I really want
is to be a good mother
a parental confidant.

I want them to trust me
feel that I am always there
I want them to know
there isn't a secret they can't share.
But how can my kids trust me,
if I can't trust myself?
I feel like I'm torturing them
because of my mental health.

are there any suggestions
on how I can improve
the anger that is always there,
my constant bad moods?
How can I be a better mom,
a better person all around?
is it even possible to get better
written date:2001
P/s AM I Better NOW????

D Day

Standing in the rain alone no body knows the pain I know. In times of rain and in times of pain nobody seems to care a strain.

People

Today these guys drop by .They are very kind guys. To the back is Anuja and the guy is called Andy welcome to Singapore

Sad

Emptiness That's the Killer and I am just Masking it.

A picture of me edited by my friend..

This picture is done my by friend who drop by my house.She says I look like a bunny.

I was arrested by the police for glue sniffing again all in all I could not see a woman who I think She is from the SICS click on the sics world but saw a bake image of her. I got the instinct that if I sniff Glue I get a better prospective of them.I then sniff it in a plastic bag.She then threw a metal line and ask me to walk straight.I played a fool of that.(DO not want to explain).I put the plastic bag in my pocket as there was no bin in the area.I walk away and a police car came out of the blue!!!!!They stop me and ask me to take the bag out.!I have no intention of getting high.

Married.

I am Married it that a blessing??

Me and myself

Me me and just me.
Me and myself. Call it selfish if you want. May hill stones and snowballs flying over my face and I will blame others. This is just part of me. Can't get rid of my rotting behaviour because I can't afford to lose my wife.

The matrix

The matrix Philosophy

China Town

China Town Trip with my wife.

I was with my wife yesterday in china town and there were lots of people.She was a bit excited to buy the deco for our new home.That's it???

This is my Wife taken with a simple cell phone camera

And me of course.......