My wife got for me an unique ashtray

My wife got for me a unique gift. It is actually an ashtray Called the butt bucket.

My Wife

I have been married for about 7 years. But it is a bit frusting sometimes.

will my PC become a zombie.

Here comes Hong Fong with an A.M.D winchester not for gaming but for basic use. I had this OS Reg problem for a few months. I am just deeply depress over my finger that was fractured it is gone.................

When one has nothing to blog

I am feeling unsure......

My back up powerbank

As one knows an android is an electronic device so this is my backup battery. It serves me well.   

I am in need of a job

I was not working for a long time already and am in very low self-esteemed state. I was comfortable in the music industry when I was young before my N.S days. But to put things short, my mum is a Tiger mum and even followed me to where I went in the school holidays saying I am go to take drugs. My closest friend was astonished when he saw that my mother followed me without my notice . I was so vacated that my mum was having the impression that I was a substance abuser...but we were just going to the library. I was working and I need my own privacy to chill out after work. I had no friends so I decided to kill myself by taking a overdose of chemicals . I dose a whole bottle of cough med one day and waited to my" D" day. Instead of feeling pain, I felt a feeling of euphoria and did not pass on.
My mum wants me to me a Doctor. I am not smart and know my limits. So if anyone will to read this DO NOT take cough med.  I am hook for live and a poly substance abuser.

AFTER NOTE: This does not imply to all people as addiction runs in the "family". Not all will be addicted. I have BPD and I feel very passionate over small things.

Tech

I do not like the idea of using an android as a computer. But technology has evolve . Till a little cell phone can replace a computer? and it can do what a PC does. I got to accept the fact.

Suckling pig

I got this for my dinner. It is kinda of expensive but it "explodes" in the mouth.

Humility is Not easy.

Being humble is something Very hard to congest. But do not take kindness for weakness. This world is all aboult fame......... "That is all I have to Say" dictation taken from the movie Forest Gump

Mistic.....should I attack

Hi guys I am not dead yet. Some of you may be angry with me that I am still alive ...just  joking...To be frank with you, life for me have been pretty tough this few years. Take for an example a casing that I bought that I bought that is made in Sweden was paranormally damaged by itself . I did not use the computer as it is a precious computer to me and I covered in black plastic bag to prevent dust.


I can give you an example of a paranormal incident that happen to me related to my computer like the covers of the computer is out of place and the stand of the computer broke off. The casing that is from Sweden was a brand new casing and was not touched I am very particular over this computer because I plan to use it for my music arrangement. A lot of things that happen to me that made me so called angry. But I have to behave and make sure my persona is fit enough as not to diminish my parent's reputation.


As you guys may not know I do not read the newspaper but when I saw Amos Yee also coming out of the Institute of Mental Health I was extremely shocked and distressed over his outlook. IMH is a place where nurses and doctors care for patients. I do not blame anyone. As you know he is just a young teenager and human makes mistakes. Anyway I am using a slow computer now. A AMD as good as a Pentium 4.6 GHz and my precious computer is not in good condition anymore. It is very disturbing but what can I do. But someone I saw told me this. In every obstacle I meet I will learn something. As for the paranormal incidents I shall not dwell on them as it is pointless.


All I can say is you guys have happy days ahead of you. And may God bless you richly.

My mum's recipe for for sleep

My mum has given me some aid for my anxiety. I am depress lately because by some unplanned incident .

I wish I was young again.

My wife cooking for me

My Dear Dear cooks for me every day and also the house work.

Ambush in a bush

I know I have been being so called "scrutinized" by law enforcement. And now it is worst.  I don't wish to talk about it as it may affect others. As for me, I admit I am a people-pleaser and that led to being taken advantaged of. I know roughly what is going to happen soon but its not God's time yet. Anyway cheers guys chill out and do not let any of my writings affect your daily life. Good luck.

I will love you for ever and ever

This is my wife and me.

Confused

To my fellow countrymen I know this doument that I type will make you guys think that I am mad. Its like I cannot say many things but all I can say is that it is not an easy task to be like me. Its a mad world. That's all I have to say. May all the gods bless the world and people.    

I am depress.

I am Sad V... SAD

My mums gift

My mum gave me some goodies.

My Fractured Nose

I am under a Hex I think,I had a fractured nose for no reason. I have the feeling some people are angry with me. 

My Dad

This is a picture of my Dad with me.

MY DAD

I love my Dad .

Mother`s Day

Tomorrow is mother`s day. I do not really have anything to give her. I think LOVE is the best gift.  Anyway I will purchase a gift for my loving mum.  HAPPY MOTHER~S DAY>

Time for Fire fight.

NO FEAR I am rested.Year 1999. No choice

I AM LOCK OUT OF THE HOUSE

I am feeling sad because I am lock out of the home I grew up with.There are thoughts of ending it all, but I have a loving wife. 
I admit there's time I went too far, and I will ask for her forgiveness and would not make the same mistake again. 

In other words, I am living for her. 

I will be with you forever, Dear Dear

FEAR

I saw some part of a movie and I was really paranoid and scared. Anyway it's just a movie.    

Who am I?

I always have this identity crisis in me. I am NOT a gay and I am also not impotent. (just my sex drive is low)

Me in the Net-Cafe

I am in the net-cafe in Geylang Now. Not knowing what to do I decided to do a self i.I realize my nasal bone is out of line.I got to see the Doctor A.S.A.P. The reason of me being so concern of my nose was because my grand mother who had pass-on said pei song Song awy cho tiao.
                    

Its life

Hi Guys, It is me Daniel I am still not dead yet. I had had just issued my s.b.o and I feel that this is a mad world.  There are some things I cannot reveal to people as there is something called (O.S.A) official secret act or authority (what so ever).

My nose

I can feel that my nasal bone is cracking . I am very careful about my nose because my Grandma Says that I have a good future and prospect because of my sharp nose and bridge. 

I have alot if spiritual attacks.

GOD Please help me .

If only things can be that simple

I wish Dear.Dear, will always be with me cause I really love her lot. By the way, I really have post traumatic Disorder I would mention later , I also have to stop DRUGS or other mind 
altering  substances ....SHRUGS.

FREE WIFI

I have decided to using public WiFi for net surfing. It is some what not fast but comes to a snail speed at times. Singapore should increase the places for WiFi as the big difference to other FORTH world country where WiFi is everywhere.

Naltrexon the cure for alcohol dependence and opioid dependence

Naltrexone thats is really hash

Codeine is an antidrepression???!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Codeine But I am Willing to STORM OUT OF IT! Codeine or 3-methylmorphine (a naturally occurring methylated morphine) is an opiate used for its analgesic, antitussive, antidiarrheal, antihypertensive, anxiolytic, antidepressant, sedative and hypnotic properties. It is also used to suppress premature labor contractions, myocardial infarction, and has many other potential and indicated uses. It is often sold as a salt in the form of either codeine sulfate or codeine phosphate in the United States and Canada; codeine hydrochloride is more common worldwide and the citrate, hydroiodide, hydrobromide, tartrate, and other salts are also seen.

Day 5

I have loss hope on taking Codeine. Why must a 3th party come between us.

A addict teaching another

I am now under my mind not to think about Codeine if a guy name Victor lee can give up Heroin and alco without rehab (wich I did for codeine), I can do the same. I am clean but the stress is coming from my wife and an ex addict Victor Lee. I am affraid He may spoil the marriage with my other half.

Day 3 of mental withdrawal

I am now in REHAB in hospital. I have the mind set to go to score Codeine. I am Thinking 10% of taking it. I am clean but I think that doing the normal usual way, is to join the other addicts to go to N.A meetings after the psychical withdrawal is the normal way to go. I can`t understand why Victor is against my readership with my wife.

To get treament you got to be in the lowers class

My wife friend, Victor Lee says after detox you have to stay in hospital in the lowers lowers environment and (class). I have already ask the hospital to let me stay in a lower class, but he says must be even be in the lowers class that will be in C "Class".I am so sress up over him as he is making my life hard.I aready slash myself because of him. The next thing he will call my agent to make things hard for me.

Is this the end of me.

There are so much stress on me. I even slash my wrist. You can put the blame on me.

I am going for rehab

I am going to withdraw from codeine. So as to get back to a normal working life.

Tramadol

I had a fall, as to make things simple It is a pain killer. Tired as of now, I she'll not go into the details about this medication

QUETIAPINE

This is the psychiatric pill people in prison abuse, so as to sleep their term away. It can be crashed and snort via Intravenous nasal , or intravenous masual. The strength as you can see is 1000 mcg.

My addiction is live long

Being  addicted to substance is not a jokeing matter. When one is addicted to  substances, (take for example  codeine with ephedrine, ) after sometime the person can not function Without the substance. The chemistry in the brain has been change. Accustomed to the substance or the brain system  has got hook to the chemistry changes  after the chemical has been consusm, the person will then con't the drug habit . Without it the person cannot function.(lost of motivation, depression ++) . Even stopping it for a long  period,  the addict's mind cannot be the same as before when the person's mind had gotten used to the drug he or she had taken before he or she was addicted and has to take them just to feel Normal. Scary ya.....ending up with psy Med.........psychology Illnesses.

My free nerbook

They gave my wife this gadget.  

You apaintenta

You guys from the course    informay             please,

Peace

I need peace in my life. As I live with pain and angongy, I feel life is complex. I was told by astrink that the only why is to have simplicity in our lives.

Can I have this picture for my COFFIN

IF I TRIED MYBEST AND THINGS DONOT WORK OUT AS IT SHOULD BE CAN YOU GUYS HELP ME IN MY WAKE? MY MOM AWAYS SAYS SHE WILL JUST BUNDLE ME UP AND LET THE gov DEAL WITH ME.  

Phetermine, the weight loss pill

I have been using or "abusing" this central nervous system. "Uppers" (AKA/Speed). I really need to get my life back in order

I am doing my best

Nevertheless it is up to God

My New Nexus 10 O.S is mess up

I am Using the table when it suddenly went "berserk ". It is like all graphic acting in corrupted manner. I tried to do a full factory reset but inva