Depress

Dear Dear is Depress......Overwork maybe?

Striking a balance

It is 1:44 am in the morning and I am not planning to sleep till I get myself “fix”.BTY I am still in the process of fine tuning my blog trying to tweak whatever I could do to make it look more artistic and “hip”. I knows it is how a person blogs and not more of than its visual outlook. But it is a gain.

Mysticism

I am feeling confused and it is because of things that are mystic happening to me. Will not go into the detail, as not to implicate people and most of all, I have no prove.

OSK

A temp keyboard!! :o)

I am Vain

I am vain, I admit but , I am getting uglier? The reason.....Think!

Sad

My computer`s network enter net is down after I gave my Wi-Fi password to a group of neighbors so I had to use a laptop to do my blogging. I am still hurt after being a person or people pleaser. Anything is possible in hacking or cracking. I am not saying they intentionally did it or do it, but the IMEI’s 15 Numbers!!?(I will not go into the details as it is too completed even for ``````````myself) Was ask to trace. Which I did not preventing myself from being hurt. (Those computer savvy guys will get my point about the IMEI thing, as it is just not a wireless phone or net)Anyway I am going to tug myself to sleep and get over it. Even the keyboard is damage due to my typing.

Why Do I keep taking photos of myself alone ?

The reasone I have to take pictures of myself alone is just my lifestyle.I am usally alone and I don`t really like to "party". BTY I

Purchase this hooty not to look 'COOL' but to mask myself.

Stupit Pictures of me.

The moment.

Time has past People had change the only thing is to love me.

I need to trust

I hope your Love for me will aways be there.

If i Have Wings?

Every one make mistakes big or small(sounds silly sorry.....It is the future that is the most important. But in some Circumstamces one needs and wants  a helping hand but no Avail .Is there a future for me....

Will someone pick up a doggy??

I am depress when I do not have the feeling of well being.....I am sad when I am alone ...I am bored when no on listens to me.

I am A BORN Frailer  .

To the internet cafe

I am now in the internet cafe .I drag my beloved wife to follow me (sorry,,,,,)Anyway it is a nice place and I had a good time. I love going to net cafes because of the crowd?! 

I am in Mayasia

I am now in Malaysia Malacca . As you guy know, I love exotic pharmaceuticals so I decided to visit a doctor!To cut things short Benzodiazepines are really a CONTROLLED DRUG here. He was so afraid to give me two (2) Xanax. He said that he may go to jail if he 'sell' it. Anyway more pictures of this holiday coming up!

550 hrs in the Net Cafe

I love Dear Dear the Most!

My New Hair Cut

I just cut my hair today in a Solon .Looks GREAT!!!

I am Happy!

I hope every day will be the same                         

Nokia 100

My wife got for me a cell phone. It cost SGT$40.The only problem is there is no ear piece. Sturgs

I am NOT a Black Hat

I am now in the Internet cafe wee hours in the morning.Nothing to do, is depressing enough.shrugs....Please click to view more

Memories of My trip to KL Maylasia

My Sony XPERIA Neo MT11 and Android ver 4.0

I am having problems with my cell phone I upgrade my Android Ver 4.0.4 and it has lags a bit at times. I know that Rooting my Cell phone will void the warranty so I decided not to it.1 GHz Qualcomm Snapdragon processor is not powerful enough. :=( . Just like I felt before upgrading).-

Fat

Me a Model???Now fat pig.....(just one of my happy days)

Time flys

Time flys....really

Facts on how I feel aboult BPD

Hi guys I am going  to write a serious and true facts of how I feel for my mental illness. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder by the doctor in 2002 or one I am not really sure shit me. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder of BPD. What I feel is it is me and not taken from other facts that i read. Basically speaking I feel sad every day. I feel that i cannot fit into society and I am different from anyone. It is like i feel really sad but i try to mask my sadness and try to look happy. When I was in my 20s i admit i was really promiscuous but frankly speaking i am not now because I am married.

It is tiring to mask myself to be happy and sometimes I do things like mutilate myself so that I can take away the feeling and the sadness and frustration I feel. I will then tell people I had slash myself and try to get their attention. That's all guys i am tired and I want to get some rest.
                                 Cheers Don

Hair Sclerosis

I have been suffering from this for a long time.It looks gross.I am now in the net cafe and have limited time. Anyway looking at the bright side, I don`t blam anyone.

RED

Why is everything Red??

2:32am in a netcafe

My hew hair Cut .

The fall

I am intoxicated!

My Christmas tree

Acting Tough

I am not fit I am FAT!

Facts Aboult Erimin

I did a writing aboult Nimetazepam years ago ./..BTY I am too tired to redo it. To be Con`t...

My Old Writings.

Erimin Nimetazepam is a benzodiazepine originated from Japan it is said to be invented after the chemical nitrazepam was invented in the western countries . 1.It has a faster onset and a shorter half-life compared to Nitrazepam making it a drug of abuse.Nimetazepam distributed more rapidly in the brain than its desmethyl derivative (nitrazepam)[faster onset]. The brain concentration of the active metabolites of the former was about twice that of Nitrazepam at 1hour after oral administration. 2. At least four kinds of reactions were involved in thebiotransformation of nimetazepam and its desmethyl derivative (nitrazepam) (demethylation at N-1,hydroxylation at C-3, reduction of the nitro group at C-7 to the amino group and (iv) subsequent acetylation of the amino group. 3. The 1-N-demethylation of nimetazepam was slow compared with the other three reactions. 4. Nimetazepam was rapidly hydroxylated at C-3, while the 3-hydroxylation of its desmethyl derivative (nitrazepam) was very slow. 5. The reduction of the nitro group at C-7 and subsequent acetylation were important routes for the excretion of these drugs. To Simplify things Erimin 5 (nimetazepam) Is a recreational chemical.

IT FIRST appeared on the local drug scene three years ago when more than 90,000 pills were seized. Now, the tranquilliser Erimin-5, or nimetazepam, has become the drug of choice among abusers. Many of the 793 drug abusers arrested last year were on Erimin-5, according to the CNB’s annual drugs report

Erimin-5 had displaced the previous year's favoured drug, ketamine.

Testing for Erimin-5 was began in January 2004. There are people who still think Erimin-5 is not detectable. The truth is Nimetazepam is classified under the Benzodiazepine family and when an accuse is tested positive from the Instant urine test for benzodiazepines , the urine sample will be taken to the Health Science Authority for the analysis for the chemical .

In the streets an Erimin-5 tablet costs between S$6 (RM13.80) and S$8 (RM18.40), while 1g of ketamine costs between S$40 (RM92) and S$50 (RM115).

Unlike so-called “party drugs” like Ecstasy and ketamine, Erimin-5 is a depressant and seen as a “soft” drug. It can also be obtained easily compaired to other drugs

In Singapore Erimin is Scheduled under the Misuse of drug act ( Chapter 185 )It is scheduled under class A which carries a Mandory Jaill therm. A trafficker can face up to a maximum of 10 years in prison and 5 Strokes of the cane.

As for illegal possession or consumption of Nimetazepam a person can face up to 10 years of imprisonment or S$20,000 fine or both.

Written by:Daniel Lim

You are the gift of my life

I LOVE YOU..

If only time can wait

I had enough.I am a born loser

Work work and more WORK :=

This is the busyes time of the year . I am a habit of leaving most work till the final moment.

SPEED!(A.T.S)Just another New boost for a long day

Stress

I’ve not written for a long time and I decided to sit down today with my feelings torn out and decided to do a short “note” for you guys. To be frank with you I was arrested by the Central Narcotics Bureau about a week ago. Only God knows if I am on any controlled drugs under the Misuse of Drugs Act.

Life is so sad as if I know of a person who was brought in by their friends to the private high class hospitals and the doctor and nurses did not report them to the authorities even though they know they are on controlled drugs.

I know who the one that play me out is. And I will not go into the details and start to implicate anyone. Paradox yeah……

All in all I promise myself not to harass the doctors and nurses from the government hospital anymore. Anyway, good night sleep tight and don’t let the bed bugs bite.
                                                                                                                                 Cheers Daniel.

Am I looking better?

Today I am feeling less empty.

Am I "shot"

I need someone to Save me.
I am in need for help...I need to have someone to assist me from my metal and emotional injury.Yup I was working well before but bad post traumatic syndrome cause me to be in this state.

Temp

My AMD Winchester Core chip is running at the right temp . YES!!!!

My first Android

Behold my first Android from Sony Ericsson

Having owned this phone for about 2 months, I must say that this is phone has great features and value for money. It has all the features of a flagship smartphone and perfect for someone on a tight budget like me. Having upgraded it to ice cream sandwich, the phone has been performing well. The OS is very snappy and fluid most of the time, except for some occasional hiccups. It might not be as smooth as other competitions but hardly noticeable. The battery life is decent and the phone is able to last me aboult a day of moderate use without reaching for the charger. Image quality of the camera is above average and you get a host of features to play withsuch as paranoma mode. Display is great with a relatively high resolution but could have been better if it had a higher contrast as u can hardly see under the sun even with the brightness of the phone turned to the maximum. Other than that, this is a great phone to have with a host of features, a removable battery and SD card to expand your storage,

My WorkStation

I have been having problems with my set up.....Struts

If only life is not so complex



Last Smile?

I am extremely stressed up today. Due to the things that happen that I would rather not method. BTY I manage to mask stress and crumbled face.    

I need help

Sleeping in the net cafe

I was so tired and depress ...I really need Help....click me

My best look when I was Paranoid

 

I am very disturbed after taking too much legal Dope from my "friendly" Clinic. 



Swimming :)

Today I decided to go swimming with my wife. It has been a long time since I with swimming. I decided to go with the motivation from my wife. She wants to lose weight, and so do I. Swimming was my love when I was much younger. It was a competitive sport when I was in my high school.So here we go!  

Webcam Shots

 I was so bored in the office till I started using a web cam to take some shots of myself.

I know I really need a detox as I can find my looks degenerating

PEACE

Peace