Sleeping Time

Sleeping Time NO GO Pills

These really makes me very sleepy and dopey.

I am just going to pop some one these and take a nap


I comes in a blister packet of 14.


12.5mg??????why the.5???
NOTE: THIS IS ONE OF THE NON BENZODIAZEPINE HYPNOTIC

COVENANT VISION Church


I spent last night in church attending Alfa course.My dear wife got me to this church to learn more about Christianity.I love her for this.

This is me with Jesudas


And Brother Eric

Jesus Is The Way The Truth And The Life

My Geylang Buddys.

My Geylang buddy

This is my friend Ratan from Bangladelsh.He is really a nice Bro to be with.This shows I HAVE no social discrimination between people...Thats it. Flat and simple.Just Me.......

JRT

OUT FROM "PRISON"

I came out from IMH today. Why I sniff glue is because I think I offended some VIP(very important people)I still can remember glue exploding ,gas leaking from a lighter from a small hole when I was doing my pool .I can see a green object with transmitters and Neurons opening and closing. When It closes I get no high and most of the time it is close. It makes me angry. Very confusing. NO feeling?????

TO MY WIFE

DEAR KIM or Dear Dear I am sorry I took some money from your wallet.I went to pay some money to my friends and have some drinks. Ethanol.

RUBY MY GRT

ME AND MY PET DOG RUBY

This is my Jack Russell Terrier it is a she and I am her owner is a small terrier that has its origins in hunting.

Pain

POEMS

my thoughts are racing
too fast for me to know
what it is I'm feeling
I wish they would flow
one minute I'm happy
smiling ear to ear
and then I get angry
and people start to fear

because after anger is violence
someone always gets the brunt
and then comes the remorse
but by then I've been shunned.
why can't I control it,
the path it always takes?
If I know it's gonna happen
can't I stop for their sakes?

the answer is no I can't
i have tried to stop before
i try to think about it
but my impulse control is poor.
Most days I'm too clingy
I hate when people leave
they think that I am bipolar
but no, I have BPD.

Borderline Personality Disorder
that's what they say is wrong
Stemming from childhood abuse
but c'mon, it's been so long!!!
Shouldn't I be better,
learned to deal with it by now?
I don't want to be like this
someone show me how.

How do I stop being angry
at people who did nothing wrong?
All these intense emotions,
I wish that they were gone.
I want to be normal
forget what's been done
to get rid of these feelings
and stop wanting to run...

I'm a mother now damnit
but how can I raise my kids?
I'm afraid of the world
and everything I did...
is how i am today
going to affect who they are?
will my mental issues
leave emotional scars?

will they hate me when they get older
for crying with no reason?
or will they love me just for trying,
and understand, inside I'm bleeding?
All these questions harass me
because all I really want
is to be a good mother
a parental confidant.

I want them to trust me
feel that I am always there
I want them to know
there isn't a secret they can't share.
But how can my kids trust me,
if I can't trust myself?
I feel like I'm torturing them
because of my mental health.

are there any suggestions
on how I can improve
the anger that is always there,
my constant bad moods?
How can I be a better mom,
a better person all around?
is it even possible to get better
written date:2001
P/s AM I Better NOW????

D Day

Standing in the rain alone no body knows the pain I know. In times of rain and in times of pain nobody seems to care a strain.

People

Today these guys drop by .They are very kind guys. To the back is Anuja and the guy is called Andy welcome to Singapore

Sad

Emptiness That's the Killer and I am just Masking it.