It is 400hrs in the night and I am not sleeping

I am overweight now.

I am been off my diet pills and my weight skyrocketed to 5kg more. There was a rebound effect on me, making me eat excessively. I have to do something quick.

Being left alone is painfully depressing

I have been alone in my own sandpit and no one is allowed to help? Why must it be me being made use as an experimental " TOOL" for others to be abuse.

I got to

Valium

I have been on Valium for too long till I have to withdraw till 70 years old.

RED BULL

I usually start mvitamins usuallynergy drink. It pruks me up.

It has all the vitamins B "complex"

My wife got some subpiments for me.

I am on GABA

GABA is the correct medication I had.

ERIMIN 3

As Nimetazepam comes in 5mg and 3mg , it is still common for people who has insomnia to take the 5mg ones.

I am getting fatter and fatter

Computers are now smart phones

The technology has became so advance till a Smart phone can do what a computer can. World processing etc...

My Wife is Manic again

I love my wife but sometimes it is very hard dealing with her.

I love my Dad

I Love my Dad a lot.

Taking a bus is fun.

I usually take a cab, but because of finical ussals.

I feel relax today.

The Experiment

I am a gut feeling I was being maked use as an experimental tool. Please treat the person very well

Chill out

went to a pub to have a mug of beer.

GABA

Please do not take away the effectiveness of this medication. It really works for me. Thanks a lot. 

I need God's help

I am getting tired.

But I have to carry on.

The mothers little helper.

Now bring up Kids may extremely stressful

Rain

Standing in the rain alone nobody knows the pain I know. In times of strain. 
No body cares

Why are there so many rules?

If they are make sensec, it is find. BTY this is just a fugitive meaning

I got to improve in my lifestyle

Every one have their own enjoyment. As for me, my quite time is at night where there are no destression.

Recovery seems inposable

Being hook on codeine is a long journey. As for me, I started way young. Recovery is not easy.

I am depress

Me and my Wife.

We went tthrough thick and thine .And I love you

My gabapatin is not working

I have the felling that medication can be made non effective. As I have to take more gabapatin and feel little effect. Sharks I got to get it refill.

A gift from the church I go to.

My new look

I have the specs that give me a neard look.

I need to have faith in God

Nicotics officer

The nicotics officer came to my house today and I was not surprise. I was let of as I did not take any Drugs that are illicit. I got to tell myself that I must me able to handle stress and not get sisezure in the past because of intense stress.

I keep losing my clothes

I have been lossing my new cloths all the time. All I have is my old clothing's. 

My wife cooks well

I am off my diet pills and that give me a craving for food.

The trip not to get trip?

I aways have the  same feeling of getting happy. Sharks the chemistry in my brain is too use to substances for years...

For my slight hunch back

I do have a slight hunch on my upper back.

I got what I really need

GABA is the thing that works for me.

I need to be driven.

I am have a bit of ADHA,OCD ect..... but I must be driven

My new glasses

I am getting better.

No to Drugs

I am aready 37 years old, and it is high time to behave.

I need to improve.

I have to practise Hard to regain my skill.

Sometimes it happens.

This picture was taken by my wife, as in fighting you can't win all the time. As this was happen years back.

The Giro spinner.

I have the love for the figit spinner. It helps me to speed time up when I have nothing to do.

GABAPENTIN

I am feeling better after taking this.

I am depress.

I hope I get better

I am getting older

I know every one is doing their best to help me,.

I know I am paranoid. I keeping thinking that people is doing harm to me. I know people are helping me. Valium to is a big NO NO. That is way IMH is not giving every one Valium. Doctor knows best. The doctor has went through what I went trough. I know they care a lot for me. yup I told them I will pay all the cash to stop the addiction. And they make things very easy for me to quit codeine.  (I hope). The doctors will make things  ( easy for me. They love nature and they love me.) I have withdrawal and they gave me the best they can. They are not evil. doctors are kind loving even the IMH doctors are stress. have to think 30 40 people after work to treat the sick ones in IMH. NOT easy.