I know every one is doing their best to help me,.

I know I am paranoid. I keeping thinking that people is doing harm to me. I know people are helping me. Valium to is a big NO NO. That is way IMH is not giving every one Valium. Doctor knows best. The doctor has went through what I went trough. I know they care a lot for me. yup I told them I will pay all the cash to stop the addiction. And they make things very easy for me to quit codeine.  (I hope). The doctors will make things  ( easy for me. They love nature and they love me.) I have withdrawal and they gave me the best they can. They are not evil. doctors are kind loving even the IMH doctors are stress. have to think 30 40 people after work to treat the sick ones in IMH. NOT easy.