Smilling But Sad inside

Smiling but sad

I am so scattered Due to the problems I am facing anyway this how I look when I mask myself.Dear please don`t leave me.I will make effort to Change my behavior.I do not sleep because my time is short.I am making up lost time.Sounds crazy yea but I have to keep myself busy so as not to ruminate about my court case.Don`t worry I will change my sleep patters when I come out from Prison.Sorry Kim forgive me.Love and Hugs Daniel.

Prison

Prison is the best place.(this was coated by some one)
I may not be able to last through today it is whether I Die or go crazy. But I have the confidence of wining the "fight"

Suicidal

Suicidal Thoughts.
I am having constant thoughts to kill myself and end it all.But I will fight the feeling.It is the battle of the wits.

Meeting my parents.

Meeting My Parents

We went to bugis junction to meet up with my parents for lunch in swensen. My loving wife was so upset with me for someting I can`t disclose for abuse prevention.To round out things she had a good time.AS for me I feel extremely empty but I mask it up as not to affect the "love" ones around me.(I promise I will be a change person expressly for my wife after my safra "chalet" stay in changi.)
Stress level. 10/10

Me

Dear Kim I am Sorry I gave you trouble but please don`t leave me because I will not be able to find a wife as kind and fun loving as you.

The streets

Which Will you chose ?

Which will you chose the new PSP or the Brick Game that made a hit in the 90s?

To my love ones

Dear love ones. I can't take the fact that I will go Prison .I feel unjustified that my lawyer asks me to Plead guilty. Please don't get it wrong that I disagree with him. He is a very nice Person and a good lawyer... It is just that I feel unjustified that I am going in for glue .I felt No HIGH. In the beginning. I feel that it is strange when I had no high in the beginning as because I took glue about one to two years ago and know the effects of the drug . I than took about 20 tubes of contact glue to sniff. Strange things happen Example .the plastic bag of glue exploded, and the incidence when a lighter beside me exploding through a very tiny hole.(the lighter was not touch and it was beside me only.)The weird thing was when I heard voices asking me to corporate with them. I sniff about 20 pulse tube in one day and I was not intoxicated at all. I just feel that I was in another world only placebo .I had a Taxi accident was then caught by a plane clouts police officer and was detain till the resource .police officers came after I came out of the hospital. In the later part, I was addicted to Glue. Eg; cold sweat. And confusion. . I was having a fiction left leg at that time. By that time I felt the High. Maybe sniffing 20 tube of contact cement of glue had added to it.
Personal Note:I have already stop the glue rubbish.

My Hair Cut

I have been wanting to have a hair cut two weeks ago and I decided to do it the day before.(sorry for the late post).Any way The guy is a very professional hair stylists.

This is me with my hair stylist from Malaysia!

My PSP

The Need For Speed.........

Kim bought for me a play station that cost SGD $280 it can surf the net too..

My Old Writings.

My Old Writings.

Erimin Nimetazepam is a benzodiazepine originated from Japan it is said to be invented after the chemical nitrazepam was invented in the western countries . It has a faster onset and a shorter half-life compared to Nitrazepam making it a drug of abuse.Nimetazepam distributed more rapidly in the brain than its desmethyl derivative (nitrazepam)[faster onset]. The brain concentration of the active metabolites of the former was about twice that of Nitrazepam at 1hour after oral administration. 2. At least four kinds of reactions were involved in the biotransformation of nimetazepam and its desmethyl derivative (nitrazepam) (demethylation at N-1,hydroxylation at C-3, reduction of the nitro group at C-7 to the amino group and (iv) subsequent acetylation of the amino group. 3. The 1-N-demethylation of nimetazepam was slow compared with the other three reactions. 4. Nimetazepam was rapidly hydroxylated at C-3, while the 3-hydroxylation of its desmethyl derivative (nitrazepam) was very slow. 5. The reduction of the nitro group at C-7 and subsequent acetylation were important routes for the excretion of these drugs. To Simply things Erimin 5 (nimetazepam) Is a recreational chemical. IT FIRST appeared on the local drug scene three years ago when more than 90,000 pills were seized. Now, the tranquilliser Erimin-5, or nimetazepam, has become the drug of choice among abusers. Many of the 793 drug abusers arrested last year were on Erimin-5, according to the CNB’s annual drugs report Erimin-5 had displaced the previous year's favoured drug, ketamine. Testing for Erimin-5 was began in January 2004. There are people who still think Erimin-5 is not detectable. The truth is Nimetazepam is classified under the Benzodiazepine family and when an accuse is tested positive from the Instant urine test for benzodiazepines , the urine sample will be taken to the Health Science Authority for the analysis for the chemical . In the streets an Erimin-5 tablet costs between S$6 (RM13.80) and S$8 (RM18.40), while 1g of ketamine costs between S$40 (RM92) and S$50 (RM115). Unlike so-called “party drugs” like Ecstasy and ketamine, Erimin-5 is a depressant and seen as a “soft” drug. It can also be obtained easily compaired to other drugs In Singapore Erimin is Scheduled under the Misuse of drug act ( Chapter 185 )It is scheduled under class A which carries a Mandory Jaill therm. A trafficker can face up to a maximum of 10 years in prison and 5 Strokes of the cane. As for illegal possession or consumption of Nimetazepam a person can face up to 10 years of imprisonment or S$20,000 fine or both. Written by:Daniel Lim

Hack version.

To My Dad

To My Loving Dad.

I am sorry for what I have done Dad please forgive me.Mistakes had been done and I can`t undo it,I love you not for your Money . But I love you as a Father and a care giver. Love Daniel Lim .

Mixture

Street photography

This picture was taken with a 3x zoom lens. Believe it or not

The Fuzzy Bear. And Fuck the Delay............

This is street photography Click on street photography to know more.

This is a lists of photos I took with Point and Shoot Camera.With an SLR..?????
Old Memories

I am Condemn of my picture in the web.Search Dhasedyl and I am On the list. Even my silly picture of me (this) is in the photo Tab under under Google.My old web site and domain had been demolish.It should be a site on controlled benzodiazepine abuse.Click here to view my torn down pictures and some writtings.

Building is a task

I tried to fix this table but I was too stupid to do that.