I hope this works.

I got two light bulbs sent to my house.

I had two light bulbs sent to wife's home for free!!! Why light bulbs? Anyway it is energy saving.

It is going to be a good day

This is when one has nothing to blog.

I can't sleep

I have not really slept for sometime aready. I tried Zoplicone and valium and still can't get to sleep. It is kinda stressful not being able to get to Zzzz.

I am trying to take good care of my body.

Not being able to sleep

I have not slept for days. I hope to catch up with my sleep be it R.E.M 1,2,3 or better still4. But better not 4 if not got bomb I cannot wake up.

I know Cigarettes are harmful but I am a smoker.

I hope It will be good year

I really hope it will be a good year this year. May all the the good wishes by my mom not go in vain and may I make my Dad proud.

Atarax

I am prescribed Atarax for sleep. My dose is 50mg but I still have trouble sleeping. I think Stilnox is the way to go as I had taken it in the S.A.F

People sleeping in the Net Cafe

There are people who sleeps in net cafes (like in Japan).

I am looking better due to my reduction in Codeine.

I have kinda stop codeine for good. I hope good Omens will come to me. Like the music Omens of love from T-Square I played on my electone when I was young.

I am going to court.

I have been charge with scolding the police. There are many charges for that as they said and I can recall aka dream like. I may go to prison and ending my life is constant in my mind, but it is a big no no as I have a wife. I have nothing against the Police. Why will I do that??? Why did I do that!!!  But there was an incident where my new MacBook and another laptop was stolen costing me alot of financial lost because of the production of music. The cost of the two laptop was expensive too but that was a year before the incident with the police. The time laps was noted by the recording company having to compensate them for the miss of deadline. As it is late now or the wee hours in the morning, I shall put my mind at rest.

I am sitting a bus.

I have decided to take a bus as it is much cheaper. I have also mention that I love long bus rides as it is relaxing. Reminiscing the days I had with my Dad is nice.

Chinese New Year is comming to an end.

My Zzz pills.

I have insomniac problem and my sleeping pills is generic Dormicum. This is produce in Bangladesh. I find it is not a milligram to milligram difference in basis compared to the non Generic ones!!! So I need to consume more. It may than damage my body. So I decided to change my sleeping pills.     

I am back at the net cafe playing games to chill out.

Being in the net cafe is something I have been doing a for a very long time. Games etc... is my way to relax.

I am now in the net cafe.

Have to use a computer at the net cafe is pretty though. But I have to make do with it.  

There are very little people reading my blog.

Anyway am blog is meant for my Dad to read.

Codeine the hard substance to stop.

I have been on codeine for many years. More that 15 years I estimate. The feeling is like a warm hug from someone one's love. It is very comforting 

Happy 2019 and goodbye 2018

It has been a very hectic year last year. I hope this year will be good. I have been through alot last year and all the good blessings by my parents may it not go to waste.

This is going to be a good year

My cell phone camera is super clear

Every Thing Seems to fall apart.

I was having a good computer setup. A gamers machine and another a desktop to do My music arrangement. I really don`t want to talk about it.  

I am sad people may put a Hex on me

I do nothing wrong.

I know every one in Singapore is being watch, but to tell truth. I forget a lot of things one can do with the computer. Why Me?

I hope things will get better.

Anything is possible

I feel that my life will be gone.

Tommy and me

Codeine

I just took codeine mixture today. It make me feel more chill out.

I am now with my wife in the net cafe

Being at home all the time makes me stress up. we are at the net-cafe and it makes me feel much better. 

Stopping codeine mixture is not easy.

I have been on it after I tried to commit suicide in the army, with the Codeine mixture in the army. It is not funny. I have no home to go to. you see back than my Parents were Jehovah witnesses I was deployed to a high key camp. Well All in all I suffered a lot.

A gift from Tommy

Getting tired in my I.T days.

Tommy is my best friend

My neighbour who helps us alot.

I am now in the Library

 I a picture with my hand Android but it can`t 'recognise' the Picture.

I am Now in the internet cafe doing some of my touch ups. :-)

Cool Beer tats must have to be on the draft.  

Collectables French Caps.

I may not be a promiscuous person but these are really collectables.

It may be exp:But it is a Collectable.

It comes with a hologram too.

I am down with a Flu and Cough

I spent the owe of last night battling with a flu. Just went to the Doctor and hope it will stop the cough and flu, which I seriously had later. 

Dhamotil

I purchase two strips of DHAMOTIL. If  I am really depress. 

How do I recover if no one helps me???

I may be a elite some people say. But I have feelings I am a human I need help.

I still have flash backs of me being rape.

I know I am weak because I still have Flash Backs,

Power bank for my android

I am still using the same power bank I got.

Atarax it too mild for me.

It has sedative effect but I can`t sleep with these.

Midazolam.

For a good night sleep.

I am recovering

I am still young and I hope to go to other Jobs for a while.

I need help.A.I.A

Is it helping me?

It kinda helps me.

I am back to the cozy internet cafe.

 I am now in the"Cozy" internet cafe chilling out. I am NOT a Hacker.

I am being watch.

It is normal now for assessment. But I am not as bad as what people think. I am happy I am out of the salon like in black halk down.

I need to work out but I have no motivation