I don't want to go crazy

I have this feeling the doctors want me to go psychotic. Diet pills  PANBESY , Dururomin, is thats the killer. Because taking one and I am still hungry ?

I don't know what to expect

My better half has been acting erectly these few days including me. I feel that we are like what, not what God meant to make us to be? But there are a lot of torment we have been going though.

I like this look

I have to live on.

I don`t to Die under the "doctors" hand

I have this feeling the spiritual force is causing be to commit suicide without my consent or have a fatal illness. I don`t want to die of a heart attack.
After Note: I know this may sound crazy. but it true.

This is my real look when I comb up my hair

I just had my hair cut and it is really badly created.I realize this after I had my hair washed. 

The Matrix it back.

I happen to have my blog spot account hack. And now it is back. Is it keylogger again. Osk + usb keyboard= diminish 

I am Blogging when there is an Android Monitoring me

Shrugs.... It feels that my privacy is being invaded.

Wayback machine to view my silly writtings

I had once an impulse to buy a domain name under ERIMIN.COM....Silly. You can view it here Erimin

My wife is aways my "life" force

I had a note book to add and ideas and I discovered this.

My pill eraser.

I was looking into my better half's pence box and fond a very unique eraser.  I am into pharmaceuticals, you see.

My better half.

I will aways love you. Withetiquette passionate love aways.

I wish I was younger

Who but me.....

My hair cut

My hair cut was done today with a hair tattoo.

It was inspired by a nurse and I got the ideal aboult 3 years ago. I had to pay more for the line. Called  hair tattoos.. The back of the hair he said he wanted to layered it a bit.

I am not looking my best.

I must know that time flys.

It is a new Day

This is the second picture I took after posting one in facebook. I need a haircut I think...by the side. Not to say I am vain , I have my haircut for only sgd $3.80. But my mum wants Me to have a longer hair like the band F 4. I think it will make me look more girly. Big NO!

The angels my wife got for me fall

I realise that my angles on my keyboard I use to compose fell off. I put it there after I heard electrical sounds comming out and also feel alot of bad vibes when and before it happened. I fear I will lose my skills. Please pray for me. Thanks.BTY my set up to compose is very simple but still I make do

The drink I favour.

This is the drink I love alot. It is creamy and leave a after taste of milk. It is from pokka a renowned brand specialisting in brevages. 

The mint chewing gum

I had also received a pack of chewing gum. Ty

A poem I wrote when I was 8.

Standing in the rain alone nobody knows the pain I know. In times of rain and days of pain, nobody seems to care a strain. when in times of agony the will to sin is aways there.

Cigarettes from Indonesia.

I just got some Cigarettes from my friend. "Cough"... It is for my wife actually.  Just wonder if the streets have them cuz it is so cheap. Anyway it is better than the ones from S'pore. The flavour is richer and the texture is smoother.

I just came back from Geylang

I spent this sunday with my better half eating. I did some O.T.C pharmaceutical meds too. But this habit will be put to a stop with my wife's help. I am facing alot of problems too which I shall not mention. It affeects my career.  Surts.......

Standby for fire fight

knowing that I am composer afte spending years training to ride on technical terrain breaking almost every bone in our body. So I may play hard and smRt.

Do I look like a female?

I know som people said I look like a girl.

At the net cafe.

I am spending time at a net cafe today. I am a Gray Hat but I know there are a lot of good ones out there

Being a cracker is aways hated by people. But I am not

The Matrix ...music...enjoy

This track is the main team of the movie the Matrix.

My note original

I have been using the Note 1 for sometime already, and find it is very useful. BTY I had consume some benzodiazepins with the trade name Valium. Each tablet contains Dazepam (usp) 10mg

It is 1:19 and I am not asleep

I really miss the days where I was in my youth again. I had bods of energy staying awake for days flipping through books. I have to accept that I am now iny 30s and things like buying a house is not easy. I wish I was young again.
CHEERS.

Am I really depressed

I have stop Prozac an (ssri) by the doctor a few months aready. Anyway Depression is so current in s'pore. To my view point it is just a aid to prevent the norepinephrine receptors from dropping

I am sad.

Sometimes in life I think it is unfair but I tell myself there is still God that loves me.

After the rain it is peace and tranquillity

I just woke up on this tuesday morning and the rain has just stop. The still remembering the road march under the intense rain in the wee hours in the morning. Cold and tired training was though.

valium

Diazepam is a benzodiazepine under the saidetive category. It is said to be the  mothers litter helper. It has a potential for abuse so one will need a Rx to purchase it.

I am frustrated

I am really frustrated now because I am not my normal self. It feels like being spellbound.

I am relived that I am still sane

I have been through a lot of turmoil lately and it is OK now :-)

The lazy Sunday's blues

I am relaxing with my wife today. It is a fun thing to have quality time with my better half.

My bear my parents gave me.

My gift from my parents.

My simple keyboard.

This Is my keyboad that people said It is very cheap. But a good workman never blame it's tools.

Smocking.

Smocking is bad for health we know. If it was known 80 years

ago it will be a controlled drug.

I am facing Spiritual attack

I am facing a lot of satanic attack . Struts, like my D.A.W (digital audio work station) music instrument for arrangement is damage. Why should I die...(I am not silly)

The best way to Die?

Why must my mother curse Jehovah and the other gods.

I cannot Belive that my mum curse me and all the gods in the world. BTY I am not a god like what people claim in the past.

Why do people say I cheat Cab drivers?

I am accuse of taking taxi without playing. It is true but I always tell the drivers if I have no money first. Hypnosis is something I am accounting (not funny). Revenge is the world. Does she want to take the best of me.... why? Anyway there is so many people called loy. It is just a surname.  

My Tablet phone is dead only Jehovah can help

I am now living things to Jehovah God. I lose every thing including my tablet phone that "died" yesterday. which my  wife got for me. Loy had cause my computers not one but all to damage including the computer my Dad got for me causing the casing to break apart . Loy will end up the same like me with God (Jehovah) help I hope.

I am under sprital attack

I now afraid to go home. It is now a hunted house.

Mixing.!

It is a big no no to use monitor headphones to do mixing.

DJ?

Wow it means perfect BPM. Mastered it to Decks.  :-)

Woa sai siao cear ker

Bu dong Sei.

My gift from my wife

Working Late

I took this photo of my DAW 2 at 3.39

am.

Why you make me suffer.

What did I do? I cry myself to sleep. I am only masking myself.

Are you a robot?

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