Depressing yea.... It has been quite some time i have not done technical styles of writing having my own signature to what i write. it has been 33 years living in this place called earth. i know some times things may not be what you hope for but circumstances made it no choice but to swallow the big pill. i know it is hard to swallow but if not there will not be improvement i 've pushed myself to the limits before when i was younger but i have not done so now i feel really weaken by the things that had encountered during these few years. Anyway, i hope that this place called planet earth will be a beautiful and peaceful place. Cheers guys.