I have been angry and disappointed with my mum for many years. I finally found a new godmother for myself. Please do not ask where I found it but she has a heart of gold which no mother have. I do not wish to carry grudges but think of it I was sexually abused as a kid and my real mom defended the guy. This is the thing that I could not accept and the feeling of aching pain through my heart telling myself that my real mother couldn't even defend her own real son. Anyway cheers guys it is a new year. Happy new year guys.Love Daniel.