Outing with a Lawyer

I have been going out with a friend of mine who is a lawyer. The only problem is she keeps thinking I am an undercover police??This is not the first time people think about me. Do I have the look of a cop??Anyway she is older than me and things may not work out as it seems.I really hope she can say I am just a normal guy with out any dealings with any law enforcement agents.Anyway I feel so sad cuz I was accuse of taking drugs into the ward。I know no one likes a drug addict.should I kill myself??and go to hell? .I know I and not weak. SO I decided to call the CNB. I really feel I am in Amsterdam where drugs like weeb is rolled and smock freely